So I have been getting back into LOST. In the first season one of the main characters-Jack, who is a surgeon, is explaining to Kate how to deal with fear. He talked about how he was operating on a girl. As he was sewing her up he split some sack of nerves or something and he got really scared so he allowed the fear to take over for five seconds-counted them out- and then continued to sew her up and she was fine. Later in that same season as Kate is getting chased by the smoke monster (i swear it is a sweet show despite how ridiculous it sounds) as she is hiding she starts counting to five and masters her fear.
In the past week I have realized-yet again- that one shouldn't allow one self to freak out for at least a week when dealing with transitions/new phases etc. It's seriously magic. By the time you get through a week you realize that you have a routine-you've already delt with a "monday" and know what to expect, and suddenly it's not so scary and you wonder what you were freaking out about in the first place.
For example: Moving in and getting used to a new neighborhood, home, life plan (in my case) etc is a lot to take all at once. It's amazing how alien a place can feel/look when you're not used to it and suddenly the littlest things can freak you out. Add on top the fact that I am adjusting to the fact that there is no more school/strict structure to my future (until we get a 2nd car and I find a job). Pretty heavy stuff since I tend to not do well with little to no structure. These were all the feelings that I was having a week ago. Close to tears all the time and feeling vulnerable.
Now here I am a week later: we're pretty much all moved in (pics to come soon), and the apartment is feeling more like home everyday. We've gone to church once-it's really close- and luckily the ward was really warm and inviting. A young couple even invited us over for dinner and games afterwards which was way more than what I was expecting.
Today Cody had his first day at Exxon and even though it takes a lot more effort than I normally like-I can make my schedule structured and make myself a daily routine until I can start something more permanent. I want to start practicing the piano again, pick up composing again, read, work out every day, get better at scripture studying, and start researching different job opportunities that I can pursue. Plenty to do.
So when you start to feel yourself freaking out when faced with a new transition etc. just take a deep breathe and say to yourself: I'll wait a week and then, if I still want to, I'll freak out then. I gaurauntee 90% of the time you'll find that after a week you'll be fine :)
I find that if you just live life in a constant state of freaking out, those little moments where you want to freak out become the norm. It's the normal moments that make you want to freak out thus leaving you in a state of total pandemonium. I've lived my life like that for years and look at me now! I'M CRAZY!!! Nah, I'm excited for you two. Texas sounds amazing and I know you're both gonna make the Lonestar state as great as everyone makes it out to be. Provo salutes you!
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